Zip, Nada

I am not completely sure what happened. Sure I had some busy moments at work but overall things were slow during the last month or two.  There was no drama at home or excessive traveling. In short, there are no excuses for not making progress.  I did work on this project a little in late May but I hardly even thought about it in June.  I did not want to mess with it.

Why?

Here is my best guess.  I hit a big snag with the protagonist.  I spent a lot time developing his personality and back story and making him feel like a real character.  Then I realized that I did not really like the character.  I knew I wanted him to have some strong negative traits and I wanted him to have a self-destructive streak.  What I ended up with was an unlikeable character that was…well…boring. 

I knew there were other problems. To be more specific, I knew there were problems with the plot.  I am not referring to plot holes. I am ok there so far.  My problem is with narrative flow.  I really struggled with working with a standard three act structure.  It’s a big problem but one I think I can work through.  The problems with the main character hit me harder.  I really did spent a good bit of time on him and now I feel like I need to start from scratch.  I think that threw me off and I think I just did not want to deal with it.

Maybe I needed the time.  Maybe I needed to let it sit for a while and come back to it.  What does the future hold for the project? I don’t know. I do know that I am not giving up.  The idea is still there and desire is still there.